December Blues
Having a really hard time, Mom. The anniversary of losing you, the weather changes, body aches, stress, losing cousin Jules and the incredible pain in my right arm, especially if I use it. Dragon voice recognition is giving me fits on my laptop and I can't dictate out in the living room.
I'm scared. I can't losing my typing abilities, Mom.
Nick finally let loose and told Serena what's been bugging him for years, including stuff about Chris. The abuse, unreasonable demands and controls and especially about treating him like he had comitted major crimes because he lost his schooling and job.
Serena talked with Nick today and said that she and David won't be offering to drive over and see Chris and his wife any more, Chris will have to make the outreach. I guess they either talked with Chris and he admitted he doesn't want to see them or they finally believe Nick about some things. David posted a quote from Oscar Wilde last night: "At first our children love us, then they judge us, and seldom forgive us," or something. I do feel sorry that they are going through pain right now but maybe, someday, things can be hashed out and they can treat Nick like an adult and maybe make amends for things that happened.
We put up the new artificial tree today. We'll decorate it a little tomorrow, I think.
I miss you, Mama.
It feels like I'm in a bit of trouble. Nothing seems like it'll ever amount to anything, I can't get to sleep, nothing sounds good to eat and the pain in the arm is different and frightening. I can't shake the depression that's hitting.
I'm scared. I can't losing my typing abilities, Mom.
Nick finally let loose and told Serena what's been bugging him for years, including stuff about Chris. The abuse, unreasonable demands and controls and especially about treating him like he had comitted major crimes because he lost his schooling and job.
Serena talked with Nick today and said that she and David won't be offering to drive over and see Chris and his wife any more, Chris will have to make the outreach. I guess they either talked with Chris and he admitted he doesn't want to see them or they finally believe Nick about some things. David posted a quote from Oscar Wilde last night: "At first our children love us, then they judge us, and seldom forgive us," or something. I do feel sorry that they are going through pain right now but maybe, someday, things can be hashed out and they can treat Nick like an adult and maybe make amends for things that happened.
We put up the new artificial tree today. We'll decorate it a little tomorrow, I think.
I miss you, Mama.
It feels like I'm in a bit of trouble. Nothing seems like it'll ever amount to anything, I can't get to sleep, nothing sounds good to eat and the pain in the arm is different and frightening. I can't shake the depression that's hitting.
Comments
Post a Comment