Life W/Out Nyx
Hey Mom;
We were pretty much in shock and full on grief yesterday. Today, it hurts like hell and its sinking in.
Jackie didn't have anyone chase her feet last night, nudge her Kindle out of the way or snuggle up next to her arm.
I have to remember to set out one less dish of the small amount of canned food everyone gets as a treat. I'm still listening for her voice to let us know she wanted someone in Jackie's room to pay attention to her and we should get in there NOW! She also had a pretty good schedule - about 7pm she'd start yowling because Jackie wasn't getting ready for bed and paying attention.
It hurts.
Deacon wanted outside today when I went to the check mail and he trotted down to the driveway and rolled in the gravel. I stopped and petted him and we had a good couple of minutes of loving in the sunlight.
It's supposed to be higher 60s today and up to 74 in a few days. The up and down weather hurts the body but I think everyone is ready for spring even though it doesn't feel like we had much of a winter here.
Miss you, Mama, more than anything.
I truly hope heaven is as I picture it and all our babies are there with you - Kaiser with his goof-dog howls, Meo swatting Sam after kissing him, SuSu being so excited to see you, and now Nyx with her tortie voice.
We never really get over them and its hard to believe that the heart can keep breaking so many times and yet welcome another one in.
We were pretty much in shock and full on grief yesterday. Today, it hurts like hell and its sinking in.
Jackie didn't have anyone chase her feet last night, nudge her Kindle out of the way or snuggle up next to her arm.
I have to remember to set out one less dish of the small amount of canned food everyone gets as a treat. I'm still listening for her voice to let us know she wanted someone in Jackie's room to pay attention to her and we should get in there NOW! She also had a pretty good schedule - about 7pm she'd start yowling because Jackie wasn't getting ready for bed and paying attention.
It hurts.
Deacon wanted outside today when I went to the check mail and he trotted down to the driveway and rolled in the gravel. I stopped and petted him and we had a good couple of minutes of loving in the sunlight.
It's supposed to be higher 60s today and up to 74 in a few days. The up and down weather hurts the body but I think everyone is ready for spring even though it doesn't feel like we had much of a winter here.
Miss you, Mama, more than anything.
I truly hope heaven is as I picture it and all our babies are there with you - Kaiser with his goof-dog howls, Meo swatting Sam after kissing him, SuSu being so excited to see you, and now Nyx with her tortie voice.
We never really get over them and its hard to believe that the heart can keep breaking so many times and yet welcome another one in.
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