Panic Attacks

Hey Ma;

Finally got around to removing you off my bank account.  We still haven't heard from SSI about repaying December's check that you received.

Well, I have a joyous day planned: preparing for the colon exam tomorrow.  I couldn't write last night because of threatening panic attacks.  I hate going to the VA, I hate appointments and I especially hate this.  With my history of sexual abuse, this is one exam that will definitely be unpleasant.  So today I get to try and drink all this gunk they sent me (which they still haven't called to tell me how to prep for the exam - I had to hit the internet).

In other words - oy humbug.


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